Elephant in the room!

There is a really good reason for not having sweets in the house while trying to eat right.  Yesterday, I got up, made the gym for 10 minutes of Bike and 5 of Treadmill. I came home, ate a banana, a whole wheat english muffin, tuna for lunch., a porkchop for dinner and was feeling good about my eating... well, pretty much.  But there was a brownie on the kitchen counter... and when I got ticked off at my wireless keyboard, I grabbed it and ate it.  I saw it there all day... and was doing ok until then...

it just doesnt' pay to have anything in the house like that. Just buying it I set myself up for failure. 

Today I never got down to the gym, and we are having pizza for dinner, but I will go easy on it. I am ok tonight.

Tomorrow we go to Vegas to watch our grandson play basketball. I plan to do some walking tomorrow.

Good Morning Monday

I actually set my alarm last night!  I didn't make it to the gym as much as I wanted last week, Saturday is an optional day and Sunday is a day off.  But I made a pledge to myself and am making to all of you that I will be in the gym 5 days this week!  I was in the gym by 8:30 this morning which is the earlest I hvae ever made it. I went 10 minutes ( 2 miles) on the stationary bike and another 10 minutes (.37 mi) on the treadmill.

There is a lot of equipment I have no idea how to use, but one had pullies and weights, so I figured I would do 10 arm pulls on each arm at 20 lbs. I can only hope I am doing it right....

I have had 2 glasses of water and a V8 this morning. I am out of bananas so I guess I am making a trip to the store today. Time for some yogurt!  I will be back later.

I am up today

When I got up this morning, the ankle on my bad leg ( has a metal rod in it) hurt.  I have decided not to go to the gym, but because I am not going, I feel a bit like a failure. I will work through it. I started the day with a V8.. and will grab a banana too.  We are going to the movie today, so I want to be full before the popcorn comes. I don't get my own, and Gary likes lots of the butter flavor.... not good on my waist!

I will report in soon,

I started off good today

I made it to the gym today and did 3 minutes of stair stepper to warm up, then 10 minutes on the stationary bike and 10 on the treadmill. I came back and had yogurt and felt it was going to be a good day.
     For lunch we went to mexican, where I go fajitias with black beans and no rice thinking I was gonig good, and I would have been if I had not eaten the tortillas!  I didn't learn until later when I entered everything into Spark (see my list of links) did I learn it cost me 312 calories and 52 grams of fat!
     So I thought I would go light at dinner, so I had a banana and a cup of Campbell's Chunky chili for 200 calories. Now I am craving sugar and trying not to give in.  Time for another big glass of water and see if it passes!

I am losing it

The title can be taken a couple of ways.  I am losing my sanity, or losing my weight.  Actually I think this journey of weight loss will be a cause of losing my sanity.  I have come to a point where I have to so something if I want quality in my life.  I am hoping this blog will keep me accountable.  I will be opening my heart up, and exploring why I eat what I do, and ways to get healthy again.

Here is a picture of me as I begin my journey...  as you can imagine, it is not easy to post this picture.

but we all have to have a beginning and this is mine. I am 318 lbs, the heaviest I have every been, and my BMI is 54.58 I am morbidly obese.  And to think when I married Gary 24 1/2 years ago, I weighted 135.

Time has come....