Update for today March 11, 2010

I started today in great spirits, and with a walk around the block. I got after myself when I had 2 hotdogs for lunch, then read how fattening they are,  Had a snickerdoodle for a snack, and still I was feeling pretty good.

Then Gary said something that upset me, and I started to fall down the hill, another snickerdoodle, and then an avacado squished into quacomole and 10 multi-grain pringles. I am not too upset about it, but after reading the label, I realize the multi-grain doesn't mean they are good grains since it was rice and corn with potatoes... won't buy them again!

Gary made bean soup for dinner with ham hocks for flavor, and I had a good bowl of that with a parmesean biscuit.

I walked about 4000 steps today, so tomorrow has to be more!

Time to begin again

It has been a month since I wrote here. That means it is not serving it's purpose. I am re-dedicating it and am going to do this every day, probably several times a day.

Today I started with a serving of applesause and a V8.  Then I took a walk around the block for 1150 steps.  Gary wants to go to the movie today, so I will go prepared with my water and a cup for plain popcorn. And make sure I eat before we go!

12:15 and on track.

Elephant in the room!

There is a really good reason for not having sweets in the house while trying to eat right.  Yesterday, I got up, made the gym for 10 minutes of Bike and 5 of Treadmill. I came home, ate a banana, a whole wheat english muffin, tuna for lunch., a porkchop for dinner and was feeling good about my eating... well, pretty much.  But there was a brownie on the kitchen counter... and when I got ticked off at my wireless keyboard, I grabbed it and ate it.  I saw it there all day... and was doing ok until then...

it just doesnt' pay to have anything in the house like that. Just buying it I set myself up for failure. 

Today I never got down to the gym, and we are having pizza for dinner, but I will go easy on it. I am ok tonight.

Tomorrow we go to Vegas to watch our grandson play basketball. I plan to do some walking tomorrow.

Good Morning Monday

I actually set my alarm last night!  I didn't make it to the gym as much as I wanted last week, Saturday is an optional day and Sunday is a day off.  But I made a pledge to myself and am making to all of you that I will be in the gym 5 days this week!  I was in the gym by 8:30 this morning which is the earlest I hvae ever made it. I went 10 minutes ( 2 miles) on the stationary bike and another 10 minutes (.37 mi) on the treadmill.

There is a lot of equipment I have no idea how to use, but one had pullies and weights, so I figured I would do 10 arm pulls on each arm at 20 lbs. I can only hope I am doing it right....

I have had 2 glasses of water and a V8 this morning. I am out of bananas so I guess I am making a trip to the store today. Time for some yogurt!  I will be back later.

I am up today

When I got up this morning, the ankle on my bad leg ( has a metal rod in it) hurt.  I have decided not to go to the gym, but because I am not going, I feel a bit like a failure. I will work through it. I started the day with a V8.. and will grab a banana too.  We are going to the movie today, so I want to be full before the popcorn comes. I don't get my own, and Gary likes lots of the butter flavor.... not good on my waist!

I will report in soon,

I started off good today

I made it to the gym today and did 3 minutes of stair stepper to warm up, then 10 minutes on the stationary bike and 10 on the treadmill. I came back and had yogurt and felt it was going to be a good day.
     For lunch we went to mexican, where I go fajitias with black beans and no rice thinking I was gonig good, and I would have been if I had not eaten the tortillas!  I didn't learn until later when I entered everything into Spark (see my list of links) did I learn it cost me 312 calories and 52 grams of fat!
     So I thought I would go light at dinner, so I had a banana and a cup of Campbell's Chunky chili for 200 calories. Now I am craving sugar and trying not to give in.  Time for another big glass of water and see if it passes!

I am losing it

The title can be taken a couple of ways.  I am losing my sanity, or losing my weight.  Actually I think this journey of weight loss will be a cause of losing my sanity.  I have come to a point where I have to so something if I want quality in my life.  I am hoping this blog will keep me accountable.  I will be opening my heart up, and exploring why I eat what I do, and ways to get healthy again.

Here is a picture of me as I begin my journey...  as you can imagine, it is not easy to post this picture.

but we all have to have a beginning and this is mine. I am 318 lbs, the heaviest I have every been, and my BMI is 54.58 I am morbidly obese.  And to think when I married Gary 24 1/2 years ago, I weighted 135.

Time has come....